Sorry

I... argh... I am.... hhhhmmmm... I'm just stupid, you know? I promised, and I tried to change, to be another person, but it's really, really, REALLY hard and I... aaaahhhmmm...and I think... Maybe I'll keep doing the same mistakes for a long time... Look, it's a part of me, it's my essence. I can't control it and I can't handle it. You must help me. Please! TRY TO UNDERSTAND!... I... I am... I can't apologise. I...argh... why does it have to be so hard?... I... I'm going back... Back to my reality. Perhaps, if you see through my eyes, you will love me, you will compreehend me and you will forgive me forever.